Just a little crush

Remember when people used to have crushes? Some people still do.

Unfortunately, I don't....and I kinda miss it.

I remember by first crush(es). I had 2 in the first grade (I was lil fast then I guess). The one was a little White kid named Robert. I actually crushed him from 1st through 8th grade...he was the cutest kid in class (we only had 1 Black guy and he was obviously gay). I remember one day in 1st grade he told me I looked like a movie star with my hair in a bun and I was in love. That boy had game!

My other crush was another Robert, a Black boy. He was older, I believe he was in like 5th grade when I was in 1st. He was the older brother of one of my friends and he also rode the same bus as me. I remember one day on the bus we had this evil sub driver. Keep in mind I was like 6 and the man asked me where my bus stop was. Umm...I had no freaking idea! I remember him screaming at me at the top of his lungs and my crush set him straight for me. I used to get nervous just looking at him.

I actually had A LOT of crushes in elementary school...boys from school, neighbors, celeb crushes (Justin Timberlake and Marques Houston from Immature were my future hubbies). When I looked back on it I'm amazed!

After elementary school, I stopped having crushes. I know a large part of that had to do with the fact that guys were not apart of my everyday life at school (I went to an all-girls high school) but I never even ended up crushing on the boys at mixers and football games. I started dating in high school and met my current boyfriend then so I guess I had no need for crushes.

College came and while I was surrounded by beautiful Black men, I never developed an actual crush on any of them. You know like when they come around your heart beats a little faster, palms get sweaty, mouth goes dry crush. Never fantasized what it would be like to be with any of them or anything.

Ok actually I'm pretty thankful those days are over....