I think this may be my first post that really deals with my current personal life situation. This isn't really what I wanted my blog to be all about but I have to vent. Bear with me...
I love my boyfriend. Love him to death!
My family, friends, and a majority of people in my life; not so much.
He's not perfect, but who is? Yes he has problems in his life, but who doesn't?
These are the things I tell myself when one of these issues or problems or imperfections come up. I can't get into the situation that has come up today and it sucks because I have nobody to talk to about it either.
I feel that it's necessary to say that I love my boyfriend with all of my heart. But love does NOT overcome certain situations and I wonder if this is one of those situations. In my heart and mind I see us being able to, but I always wonder what God's plan is. I can't force this, this is completely out of my control, but I don't know how to let go and just go with the flow...
I get so sad at the thought of not having my boyfriend in my life which is kind of bad on one hand. The brief period that he was out of my life was some of the worst days of my adult life. I was depressed, sad, lonely, and I couldn't fathom going through that again! I'm stuck, not sure what to do, how to react to a situation that has nothing to do with me but at the same has everything to do with me.
This post probably doesn't make much since, but I needed to let somethings out, hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.
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