All the talk in the world, Lost in the world, Till you finally let that thing go

Paranoia (n.): a thought process heavily influenced by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion.

Paranoia is a mofo. It can ruin things, it can turn you into a crazy person. When you suffer from it it overwhelms you, takes over, and consumes you.

I was never paranoid before. I always felt pretty good and secure about things/people in my life. But somewhere along the road of life, things happened and those things turned me into one of those paranoid people.

"You've got a f*cked up attitude, you're gonna be single forever." That's what this guy, I will refer to him as Herb-Man (because this most likely won't be the last time I refer to him in a post and that is also his Yahoo screen name), once told me. Mind you, Herb-Man had the nerve to say these things to me after it was revealed he had a girlfriend the entire time we were involved.

It seems like after I got duped by Herb-Man I was got duped a few more times even by those I never thought would do me that way. I became paranoid.

Paranoia can ruin things like relationships. Your heart tells you one thing but your paranoid mind tells you another and usually the paranoid mind wins.

My question is how do you get over paranoia? How do you let go of the things that made you paranoid in the first place? I really need to  know....

Donda Aint Raise No Fool...Even though it seemed like it on the VMAs

I missed Kanye on Jay Leno's show premire last night but I've been hearing about this all day.

Leno asked the question that I think a lot of people asked and wondered....how would Kanye's mom feel about what he did?

As a Kanye fan I know that the man has passion; he has strong feelings and he doesn't hesitate to go on his emotions which is all part of why he is so good at what he does. But he knows his momma wouldn't approve of what he did to Taylor Swift. Just seeing him tear up and hearing his last line about trying to figure out how to "get through the rest of this life" it's very clear the influence his mother had on him and may be he is just lost without her.

Check the video...
Tough Times - 'The Jay Leno Show' Video | AOL Television

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Song of the Day: Kanye West "All Falls Down"

This is one of my favorite Kanye songs. It comes from his first album The College Dropout which was back in the days when he was talking about things.

In the second verse he talks about being self-conscious and trying to stunt when you really don't have the means to do it.

I think stunting can mean more than just in reference to material things like buying that new Louis Vuitton or putting 22s on your truck. Sometimes we stunt with our feelings. We pretend we're something we're not on the emotional side and when it hits that it's not really you you're pretending to be or you get in over your head it all falls down on you. I think he poses a good question in the chorus...



When it falls down who you gon' call now?